not the letter i meant to send.

liz,

i wish i had written you sooner as this was not the letter i intended.

i feel like our friendship had only just started. and i feel like it had always been there.

waiting.

you were just like me in so many ways. and i felt i could have learned so many things from you.

people fell in love with you right away. i mean that truly. you were genuine even to strangers. you did not make superficial friendships. neither do i.

but you were able to make these friendships in hyper-speed, where as i am cautious and slow. i was in awe of your energy and fearlessness.

you were hilarious. i could laugh out loud in a room alone just thinking of your sense of humor.

it's hard for me to believe that you aren't here anymore.
did the earth shudder at that moment? did the sun dim somewhere? how could that much energy leave without some ripple?
but really, a ripple did occur. throughout the hearts of your family and the friends you have shared your life on earth with.

i wish i could bask in your light again, but i feel the deepest gratitude for having been exposed to it at all.

you will forever be in my heart.

love,

renee